Thursday, February 21, 2008
As I go through my scrapbook I notice many things. I notice my defeats, my accomplishments, my memories. This scrapbook was an assignment my AP psych teacher gave to us for our final grade my senior year of high school. My teacher gave us some guidelines, gave us some topics for essays that had to be written, and told us to be creative with our assignment. Off we were, on our own to make these scrapbooks, to reflect on our lives, to foresee our futures. I covered many topics; they varied from my childhood, to my future goals, to pictures of any and everything, to probably the most influential and important part of my life: cross country running.
As I sat in my eighth grade health class Mr. Penna-Ward (who would later become more than a teacher to me) began to show us a short movie, consisting of video clips and pictures of this so called sport called cross country running. As I watched this movie I thought to myself “running? A sport? Wow I learn something new everyday”. After the movie Mr. Penna-Ward handed out a sign up sheet for people who were interested in the sport and would like to get a call during the summer for when they enter high school. I thought “what the heck, it kind of looked like fun, everybody was just hanging out, and I’ll just sign up it can’t hurt, plus I’m already playing travel soccer and I don’t really want to play soccer in high school too”. So I signed up and my freshman year captain, Lauren, called me over the summer to attend captain practices. I attended captain practices along with regular practices. My coach, Coach Barber, would have me run with the other freshmen and the slower group. I trained and trained and ran and ran preparing for our first race. Race day finally came and I didn’t know what to expect or what to do I just planned on running. Our first race was held at Mount Greylock. These girls were known in our county as being undefeatable although I didn’t know it at the time. The time came for the race to start and I didn’t know how fast to start, who to run with, anything I was pretty clueless. The race ended and I didn’t bother looking at results like everyone else I just basically figured I am a freshman it’s not going to matter. I could see all the other girls running over to the results, some crying and others with smiles on their faces. I found out later I came in 15th out of close to a hundred girls. I got my name in the paper and got my Taconic Cross Country Top Five 2003 shirt, for placing in the top five of my team. My whole freshman year I kept on being naïve not really knowing that I wasn’t actually that bad at running. I kept hearing talk of a letter even though I had no idea what that was. I was actually planning on playing soccer for my school my sophomore year. So I kept racing and I kept coming in the top twenty of every race. I managed to keep Becky (my other captain, Lauren was completely out of sight) in sight and switched on and off with my place with Colette (a girl two grades ahead of me). Finally the Berkshire County Individuals race came around and I was part of the varsity team. It was a fast race and I was competing with some of the best in the county. The top fifteen got medals and got called up by their names in front of everyone. Although I did not get in the top fifteen I got nineteenth place and that was good enough for me. I also made the varsity team that would be competing at Western Mass. My freshman season of cross country exceeded my expectations of the sport. In the end I found out what lettering meant.
My sophomore season of cross country I ran. I did not end up playing soccer. I never really regretted this decision because cross country taught me a lot and I also got a lot of attention and recognition that I would not have received from playing soccer. My sophomore year I came back more competitive. I only fell in the top twenty once or twice. Most of my races were in the top ten. I remember this one race. It was held at Hoosuc Valley. Throughout the whole race I was pretty much neck and neck with this one girl. We kept switching on and off with a lead through the whole race. As we were coming to the end she was still in front of me. Out of nowhere I came from behind her passed her and blew her away as I heard her say “nooooo!” as I had just beat her. Once again I earned my letter this season. My school and Greylock were pretty much even towards the end of the season. We beat them once and they beat us at individuals. We were the first team to be co county champs with Mount Greylock. The only difference with this individuals was that the top twenty got medals and called up. This season I got seventeenth place and earned my medal along with qualifying for Western Mass.
It was my junior season when things started to take a turn. Over the summer I ran a lot I trained with guys so I would be faster. The season started out better than my freshman year and better than my sophomore year. I was even more competitive and I was ready to rock the girls in Berkshire County. No problem. So I thought. All I had to do was place at least in the top five of every race. I was doing a pretty good job at it too. My most memorable race was held at a campground almost an hour away from my school. It was against the dreaded Greylock. I was more prepared for this race than my very first one or any other. I ate right all day, I hydrated, I got a good night sleep, I warmed up, I had spikes, and I was mentally prepared. I was ready to go. I started this race out with maybe a girl or two ahead of me. The problem came when I entered the woods loop and twisted my ankle on a rock going down. I started limping but kept running as I watched some girls run past me. Finally after one I decided I wasn’t going to take it and blocked out the pain. I picked myself up and found myself head to head at it with about 4 greylock girls on my butt in the very end of my race. One passed, I couldn’t run any faster. The next one I saw out of the corner of my eye and like a switch I was out, beat every one of them and came in sixth place. I wish I could say that race was the only negative part of the season but it wasn’t. I slowly started getting worse and I couldn’t understand why. I had this pain in my leg but chose to throw some tiger balm on it and call it a day. I could feel it tingle on my leg as I prepared to run. After I blew my race at individuals I decided to see a doctor before Western Mass. I started to cry as he told me I had a stress fracture in my left femur and I could not compete. I still got my varsity letter that season and did not run for the next 3 months after that.
My senior season had to probably be the hardest for me. I was captain and you bet I lived up to it. I did not miss a practice once. I held all of the captains practices. All summer I ran about at least an hour a day. I trained, I raced, I timed myself, and I conquered my weakness, hills. With all this running I thought I would go back into the season and pick up where I left off only better. I was dead wrong. I picked up from where I blew my race away at individuals. I could not recover from that stress fracture. I could not bounce back. The only race I really ran was my last race at Taconic. It was painful and humiliating. I can’t think of a worse feeling than knowing what you could be and were. It’s an awful feeling having nobody know your name anymore and seeing others that you beat before doing what you could once do. I did not letter this season. I did not compete at Western Mass. I was a nobody.
As I look at this scrapbook I can reflect on many things. I see not only my many accomplishments but my failures as well. I am the person I am today because of cross country. It introduced me to many new people and experiences. I learned who I was through this sport. I am not only a student, a friend, a daughter, an employee. I am now a runner, an athlete.
Final Draft
Set Your Mind, Achieve All
Walking through the halls nervously during the spring of my freshman year in high school I had one thing on my mind—Varsity Softball. Every girl in the ninth grade wanted to be on Green Mountain Union High School’s Lady Chieftains. This was not the best team in the state, however, being a part of the team came with close friendships with the upper classmen. There was a meeting being held for all girls that were interested in playing softball. People were rushing through the auditorium doors to find a chair like a herd of animals, and people were talking anxiously to one another. As the coach and assistant coach entered the room the chattering stopped, and everyone swarmed around the coaches like bees searching for honey. The coaches explained to us how the tryout process was going to work, much like an American Idol show. The meeting came to an end and my mind raced with the thought of running around the bases in front of the bleachers that are crowded like a Rolling Stones concert. It was as if my head lit up like a light bulb, I was going to make this team. After that meeting I was going to push myself beyond every personal limit to become a part of the Varsity softball team.
The first day of tryouts was being held the next day after the long tiring day of pointless classes and drama filled talks with my friends, near our green pea colored lockers. I went home that night and went to bed early so I would not be tired for my first day of tryouts. I woke up early the next morning, packed my sports bag that smelled like old feet and must. My mother cooked french toast and sausage the next morning so I did not have to force down the fake eggs and hash browns the school pretended was food. I was feeling great, the classes went by relatively quickly and it was time to run quickly down to the gym for tryouts.
As I entered the gymnasium I was blinded by the bright yellow color of the gym and the florescent lights that shined vibrantly off the floor. Everyone was partnered up to throw the softball around, I had butterflies in my stomach whether I would have a partner or not. I walked slowly up to a girl and just before I opened my mouth to speak I heard my name being called in a high pitched voice, it was the captain of the team and she wanted to be my partner. The coach came in a few minutes past 2:30 and that is when hell froze over in Chester, Vermont.
Every practice became more difficult, the amount of running, pushups and sit ups doubled with each day of practice. With each day came the frequent thought that I would not make it to the next practice, the amount of dedication and exercise was bringing doubt about whether or not I really wanted to be on this team. Then I remembered the friendships I have made and the laughs that were shared after every practice, even the car rides to the softball field with the upper classmen made me want to continue.
The last practice of the tryout period came and I was more than nervous, throughout the day I was shaking with anticipation. The final day came with much more work and the key factor to get through this last hump was the ability to push myself further than I have before. The next two hours was going to be very difficult but I knew I could do it; I wanted to be on this team more than anything. The team ran a mile and a half together, my legs felt as if they were on fire and I could feel the blisters forming on the back of my heals. My sweat left small marks on my shirt and my sneakers were constantly coming untied. As we were running I felt like I was never going to be finished, it was the Boston Marathon in little Vermont. The pushups were causing my arms to weaken and I felt them turn into rubber, but was relieved when I was finally done. When the exercising was over the room was overcome by a sigh of relief and everyone was feeling exhausted and miserable. The pain did not end there, my partner dropped the ball while passing back to one another and we were both sent away to run more laps. I reached the point where I did not think my legs were going to move anymore and were being held down by cinder block, but I was hit with the thought of the team I was soon going to be on.
The moment came at the end of practice, the moment of truth, the moment that would determine the rest of my freshman year, if I was going to get one of the team jackets and be part of an actual team. My hands were sweating profusely and I could hear my heart beating like a drum jumping out of my chest. We all gathered around the coach, he congratulated all of us that have completed the tryouts and he told us he was proud of each one of us. Then the moment came, he began to read off all the girls that made the team. He started with the 12th graders moving down to the 11th graders and so on. The hesitation built gradually as he continued calling each name. Then the coach stopped at the freshman, his blank stare lowered down to gaze at a paper that contained all of the Varsity players and he looked back up with an awkwardly sideways smirk on his face and said, “There are only two freshmen that I can bring on to this team and feel comfortable about playing.” That was it, my eyes began to water up as if a dam had just been let down, I was not making the team. My head fell and my name was called. I did not know what was going on, he called my name, my name. I was so excited that I was one of the two freshmen picked. I quickly wiped my tears away and jumped up, screaming words that would only make sense to a caveman. I ran over to sit with the team that I would now be committing my life to, the girls that were chosen to play Varsity softball, and I was one of those girls. The girls envied by all the girls walking away, upset and questioning what they could have done differently to make this team.
then and now
Professor Meek
English Composition I
February 18th 2008
When I was in elementary school, I was a very shy kid; I was shy because I was always getting picked on by all the other kids because I was so much bigger then my classmates as well as the older kids. Due to my size I was always ganged up on and made fun of. Occasionally I would get physical and I would be the only one who got into trouble and I would constantly be sent to the principal’s office.
Back then I never talked to the other kids except a select few who I did like. It was tough for me because every single day at recess I would go out and play soccer or basketball and it would be someone who I was playing with would grab the ball and hold onto it, or when I had the ball, they would purposely try to take me on and start hitting me instead of trying to get the ball. This angered me
All of my childhood aspects changed within a single night. I have a cousin who I always looked up to because he was older, bigger, and stronger then me and I wanted to be just like him one day. This particular night he was over and we had our usual wrestling match. I lost as expected but in the meantime, I realized something shortly after he left. If I was so much bigger and stronger then all of the other kids in my class, why don’t I use my size to my advantage? I mean, I am stronger and bulkier then everyone else, I shouldn’t cower away from them when they gang up on me, I should stand my ground and show them that being bigger is better. I know I’m the best at basketball in my school after all, so why don’t I just show them who I am. Im not weaker, Im bigger, stronger, and Im better then them.
After that night, I went to bed with a new sense of who I was. I was a changed kid. The next day at recess while playing soccer, someone kicked the soccer ball at my head. Normally, I would have gotten angry at that point but I was thinking “ok let’s play on.” Shortly after the same kid fired the ball at me again and I walked up to him and said “you better stop that or else. He replied with “or else what?” I replied with” hit me again and find out.” As soon as he got the ball again he shot right at me. I walked up to him and clobbered him in the side of his head. I stood over him and said “that’s what. If your gonna be a smartass I wouldn’t try doing that again.” From that day on I was a new person. Like a fight scene in a jail movie, I was instantly respected by all of my peers. My enemies tried to make good with me so they wouldn’t suffer the same fate.
I believe that the reason I changed was because I was tired of everyone picking on
me. I wanted just to be respected and not being made fun of. I wanted to go through a full day without having to worry about someone breathing down my neck every two minutes. I don’t know exactly what helped me change but I think it was when I thought about my cousin, I felt his strength and power and I wanted to be just like him when I grew up.
I see now that because of my actions I gained the respect of my peers and I was much happier. I still picture those days when id be sitting away from everyone else talking to myself and eating my ice cream. I would rather now sit with many people in a group rather then have to confine myself away from society.
Wednesday, February 20, 2008
Greg Lopes- Narrative Essay
A Rainy Day
“Uggh! It’s still raining outside”, I say as I look out the window. I never liked having to sit through an entire day of school when there was bad weather. The muggy weather seemed to make the school day go by so slow. “Come on Elissa, hurry up, I don’t want to be late for school.” My little sister always seems to take forever to get ready in the mornings. It’s a good thing that I woke up before her; otherwise I would have no chance of taking a shower before school. Without wasting any more time I decided to go turn on my car to let it warm up; I really didn’t want to be late for school. I went through the usual process of harassing my sister to hurry up, trying to salvage some chance of getting to school on time. With my patience wearing thin, my sister finally came down stairs, ready to leave for school.
After walking out my front door, my sister and I walked rapidly to my car, trying to minimize the time that we spent in the rain. I went through the usual process as I sat in my car; I buckled my seat belt, checked my mirrors, turned on the radio, and since it was raining I turned on the windshield wipers. I looked around as I backed out of my drive way; the rain had made it a very foggy and muggy day, difficult to see anything more than I few hundred yards away.
I began my journey to school as I pulled my car out onto the main road in front of my house. Most students only have to drive a few minutes to school (in their town), but I went to a regional school that was one town away so on most days it would take me about fifteen minutes to get to school. I knew that the rain would turn my usual fifteen minute commute into twenty or even twenty five minutes. The rainy winter day had left the roads wet and slippery, so I drove slower and more carefully than normal.
After driving for about ten minutes I started to get bored, and the rainy weather was only changing my mood for the worse. So I put in my favorite CD, attempting to make my boring drive at least partially enjoyable. After a few more minutes of driving I came to an area of road that was usually very busy and congested, and I expected the situation to be worse than normal with the bad weather. The road glistened with rain as it began to dip down towards a train bridge underpass. As the road continued to slope down, I could see traffic moving slowly through the underpass, and I began to slow the car down as the underpass got closer. Before I could think I saw a car racing around the corner of a side street that wasn’t any more than fifteen or twenty feet in front of my car. I heard my little sister scream as I slammed on the brakes and honked the horn of my car. The tires of my car screeched as my car slid over the wet road, and the car that was racing around the corner of the sidestreet also slammed on its brakes. It was too late.
Bam! My car was hit directly on the front passenger wheel well, and on the corner of the front bumper. The car was immediately brought to a screeching halt. The sudden stop threw my sister and I forward, but our seatbelts kept us from moving. The dust settled as broken metal, plastic, and glass were distributed on the rain soaked road. I sat in my car my eyes were wide with shock and disbelief, trying to find some understanding for what had just happened. I checked with my sister to make sure that she was alright, and luckily she didn’t even have a scratch. After a few more moments of shock I pulled myself together. I got out of my car and began to assess the damage that less than a minute prior did not exist.
The driver of the other car came over to make sure that my sister and I were ok. He didn’t even try to blame me; instead he immediately starts to apologize for what happened. We exchanged registration and insurance information, and filled out the accident report when the police arrived. All while I was still in a haze of disbelief. My sister and I did make it to school that day, albeit significantly late. My sister, myself, and the other driver involved were all free of injury. Unfortunately the same could not be said for my car which ended up being totaled.
While my life was never in any real danger, my car accident is still one of the most significantly scary events that I have experienced in my life. Being a young driver and still only in high school, I was very shaken by the events of that day. If I were to get in that same car accident now, I would be able to handle myself in a more mature way, and it definitely wouldn’t have such a profound effect on me. While I was never a wreck less driver, my car accident has definitely made me a far safer driver. It helped me to understand how important it is to act responsibly and maturely; especially when doing something as potentially dangerous as driving a car. Today, I have a much greater appreciation for my own safety and the safety of everyone else on the road than I did before my car accident.
Hyper Extended
The day that I twisted my ankle was pretty ordinary and I was not expecting a lot to happen. It was fairly normal day, I had a little bit of breakfast and rushed to get to school. I was tired with a slight headache and went through a normal day of classes. When it was time for practice I had my usual troubles with some of the drills since I was relatively new to the sport. My head felt as light as a balloon as went through the warm-up. I knew the rest of practice was going to be rough. I pushed through the excises and drills as best I could and didn’t complain. I was glad that I had the opportunity to wrestle. As the practice dragged on I grow more and more tired. My body was burning and winded. When I had to pick an opponent to wrestle I ended up with Nate who had about 25 pounds on me and a couple of inches. Its not like I hadn’t wrestled bigger guys but trying to do so tired and dehydrated isn’t fun. He must have been feeling tired to since it wasn’t a very skilled or quick match. I don’t remember exactly how it happened except that he was on top and somehow sat on my ankle with my toes still planted in the ground. I immediately regretted not pulling my foot out sooner. The pain shot through my foot and I knew it wasn’t good. I then hopped to the sideline and worried that it was over. I remember sitting and waiting for practice to finish and hoping that it wasn’t to serious.
When I went to the Doctors office on that dark and muggy day I sat and waited anxiously to find out if I would be able to wrestle again, though knowing I probably wouldn’t be able to. He came and confirmed that I wouldn’t be able to wrestle. My hopes for the season were over. No one could change that I wouldn’t be able to contribute competition wise. It was disappointing that I wasn’t wrestling but I learned that I had to move on and I started resting my foot for volleyball.
Tuesday, February 19, 2008
Set Your Mind, Achieve All
Walking through the halls nervously, during the spring of my freshman year in high school, I had one thing on my mind—Varsity Softball. Every girl in the ninth grade wanted to be on Green Mountain Union High School’s Lady Chieftains. This was not the best team in the state however being a part of the team came with close friendships with the upper classmen. There was a meeting being held for all girls that were interested in playing softball. People were rushing through the auditorium doors to find a chair like a herd of animals, and people were talking anxiously to one another. As the coach and assistant coach entered the room, the chattering stopped, and everyone swarmed around the coaches like bees searching for honey. The coaches explained to us how the tryout process was going to work, much like an American Idol show. The meeting came to an end and my mind raced with the thought of running around the bases in front of the bleachers that are crowded like a Rolling Stones concert. It was as if my head lit up like a light bulb, I was going to make this team. After that meeting I was going to push myself beyond every personal limit to become a part of the Varsity softball team.
The first day of tryouts was being held the next day after the long tiring day of pointless classes and drama filled talks with my friends, near our green pea colored lockers. I went home that night and went to bed early so I would not be tired for my first day of tryouts. I woke up early the next morning, packed my sports bag that smelled like old feet and must. My mother cooked french toast and sausage the next morning so I did not have to force down the fake eggs and hash browns the school pretends is food. I was feeling great, the classes went by relatively quickly and it was time to run quickly down to the gym for tryouts.
As I entered the gymnasium, I was blinded by the bright yellow color of the gym and the florescent lights that shined vibrantly off the floor. Everyone was partnered up to throw the softball around, I had butterflies in my stomach whether I would have a partner or not. I walked slowly up to a girl and just before I opened my mouth to speak, I heard my name being called in a high pitched voice, it was the captain of the team and she wanted to be my partner. The coach came in a few minutes past 2:30 and that is when hell froze over in Chester, Vermont.
Every practice became more difficult, the amount of running, pushups and sit ups, doubled with each day of practice. With each day came the frequent thought that I would not make it to the next practice, the amount of dedication and exercise was bringing doubt about whether or not I really wanted to be on this team. Then I remembered the friendships I have made and the laughs that were shared after every practice, even the car rides to the softball field with the upper classmen made me want to continue.
The last practice of the tryout period came and I was more than nervous, throughout the day I was shaking with anticipation. The final day came with much more work and the key factor to get through this last hump was the ability to push myself further than I have before. The next two hours was going to be very difficult but I knew I could do it; I wanted to be on this team more than anything. The team ran a mile and a half together, my legs felt as if they were on fire and I could feel the blisters forming on the back of my heals. My sweat left small marks on my shirt and my sneakers were constantly coming untied. As we were running I felt like I was never going to be finished, it was the Boston Marathon in little Vermont. The pushups were causing my arms to weaken and felt them turn into rubber, but was relieved when I was finally done.. When the exercising was over, the room was overcome by a sign of relief and everyone was feeling exhausted and miserable. The pain did not end there, my partner dropped the ball while tossing it and we were both sent away to run more laps. I reached the point where I did not think my legs were being held down by cinder block but I was hit with the thought of the team I was soon going to be on.
The moment came at the end of practice, the moment of truth, whether I was going to make the Varsity team, if I was going to get one of the team jackets and be part of a bigger picture. My hands were sweating profusely and I could hear my heart beating like a drum jumping out of my chest. We all gathered around the coach, he congratulated all of us that have completed the tryouts and he was proud of each one of us. Then the moment came, he began to read off all the girls that made the team. He started with the 12th graders, moving down to the 11th graders and so on. The hesitation built gradually as he continued calling each name. Then stopped at the freshman, his blank stare lowered down to gaze at a paper that contained all of the Varsity players and he looked back up with an awkwardly sideways smirk on his face and said, “There are only two freshmen that I can bring on to this team and feel comfortable about playing.” That was it, my eyes began to water up as if a dam had just been let down, I was not making the team, my head fell and he called my name. I did not know what was going on, he called my name, my name. I was so excited that I was one of the two freshman picked. I quickly wiped my tears away and jumped up, screaming words that would only make sense to a caveman and I ran up to sit with the team that I would now be committing my life to, the girls that were chosen to play Varsity softball, and I was one of those girls that were envied by the girls that were walking away, upset and questioning what they could of done differently to make the team.
Monday, February 18, 2008
My first job
2/17/08
My first Job
English
Professor Meek
Over the summer of my 8th grade year, going into the 9th grade my parents thought that I needed to get a job to be prepared for the world. I remember hearing that and thinking me, a job, have my parents really lost their minds, there is no way that I am ready for any type of job. I was also not trying to have my summer taken away from me because of a job. Summer is the time that I am supposed to be free and chill with my friends. I felt like the allure of summer was going away all because of a job that I didn’t even want to have.
After a while of me whining and complaining about how I am not ready for a job; which was just an excuse that I made up. I finally realized that I was going to be having a job this summer. When I first thought about what job my parents were talking about it was market basket or something. I quickly found out that my whole thought process of the situation was wrong. The job that my parents had in store for me was a hell of a lot more work than that.
My grandfather worked in the catering business, at a temple that was right outside of Boston. Sometimes he would have these huge events, and a lot of my family would go to the temple and help my grandfather with the catering services. That summer would be the first time that I would be helping my grandfather with the whole process.
I had only seen from a far what went on in the temple when a event was going on. I had no idea what was going to be expected from me. The only thing that I did know was that the job would be hard, because that is what my parents would talk about. Laziness would not be allowed at all on this type of job.
When I first should up on the job, which was in the early morning, things seemed to somewhat calm and there was not a lot of commotion going on. Everyone seemed to be in a good mood, just getting ready for the work ahead of them. I had come to the temple prepared for a hustle environment so my whole focus was thrown off. I was almost scared of what was going to happen next.
As soon as nine o clock came around things changed. My grandfather came in the room and everyone knew that it was time for work. My first job was to set up all the tables and the chairs. I was like wow that will be easy to do, and then I saw how many tables and chairs there were, an also how big the room was. I thought that I would be spending the whole day trying to set up these tables. After what seemed forever I was finally done with setting up the chairs. I thought I might be getting a break, but I quickly realized that at this job there was no such thing as a break. I was right back into work as soon as I was done with the chairs.
The next part of my job was to set the tables that I just put up. Since we had over a hundred tables we had so much silverware that it was ridiculous. It wasn’t just the silverware either. It was the glasses, the napkins, and the centerpieces. Everything had to be in the right place to or I could get prepared to be yelled at. It took me a good minute to get used to where everything had to go, but once I got it down I moved at a pretty good pace. Once I was done with that it was almost time for the guest to start arriving.
Once the guest go there I thought I might get a break, but once again I was wrong. I had to make sure that everything was moving smoothly. If there was something little that needed to be done I was most likely the one who was going to be called. Even though this job was tough I was a real good experience for me. I would have never been able to see what a real tough job is. Plus the pay for the job is real good so that was a huge plus to it all.